Jasper

This is Jasper. He is another addition to my long list of why I think some people really suck.

He was found on the side of the Coaldale highway by the Atco Gas guy in -25 degree weather. He saw him in the ditch, pulled over to see if he was still alive and told him to hang on, he had to go to another call and would pick him up on the way back. So Jasper waited. The mans next stop after picking him up was my grandma's house to re-light her furnace. He jokingly asked him she knew anyone who rescued animals, to which she happily replied her granddaughter. Dogs grandma, not cats. So out to his van I went to see this poor cold little guy lying in the bottom of the kennel not moving just glancing up when the door opened. Fearing the worst I said I would take him, the least I could do if he was in that bad of shape was take him to the vet and put him to rest, he had been through enough. I loaded him in my truck and headed home to call and make an appointment with the vet. I brought the carrier in the house, gave him some water, a blanket and put it in the warm laundry room until it was time to go. Not even 15 minutes later the little bugger had snuck out of the kennel and was doing figure eights at my feet purring like crazy, other than a bad case of ear mites he was fine, just had to warm up. Turns out he is friendly, cuddly, litter trained, loves dogs, cats, people and kids and is pretty perfect. I emailed some people to see if anyone wanted him, to no reply.

So to the stupid jerk that dumped their perfect cat on the side of the road, I hope you come back as your own animal in your next life. You do not deserve the unconditional love an animal has to give, you only deserve what you give to those animals.

So as much as I do not want another animal to love and have to say goodbye to one day, Jasper and the other boys in my house decided I did not have a choice. Plus he is the only one willing to sit with me and cuddle during Noah's 3am feeding, I look past the part that he is purring so much he is drooling on my arm!

It has been a crappy year to say the least, well minus the cute guy above. Lost 4 of my furry kids and then a few weeks ago my grandpa also passed away. So in the car on the way home today I heard a song and it made me think of my little guy and put into words what I think when I look at him, especially with the rollercoaster of emotions this year has been.

I was honestly scared to death about having a baby. I am a dog person, not a kid person, my nephews and niece are great, in small doses. I did not want to responsible for someone, I even remembering asking my friend what happens if I do not love him as much as my dogs! I was freaked out to say the least, I mean what kind of mother says that! Then I saw his face when he was seconds old, I cried, and now find myself so in love with the little guy and wondering how boring it was without him. Now my thoughts are how to protect him from all the horrible things in the world, how to keep him from being hurt by people, how to keep him from feeling sadness and the pain of losing someone or something you care about. I guess these are the things that help us grow, help us to become who we are and we need to experience them, but I still cannot help but feel exactly as the song says.

Never Grow Up

You're little hands wrapped around my finger

And it's so quiet in the world tonight.

You're little eyelids flutter cause your dreaming

So I tuck you in

Turn on your favorite night light.

To you, everything's funny

You got nothing to regret.

I'd give all I had, honey

If you could just stay like that.

Oh, darling don't you ever grow up

Don't you ever grow up

Just stay this little.

Oh, darling don't you ever grow up

Don't you ever grow up

It can stay this simple.

I won't let nobody hurt you, won't let no one break your heart.

And no one will desert you

Just try to never grow up, and never grow up.

Your in the car on the way to the movies

And, your mortified

Your mom's dropping you off

At, fourteen there's just so much you can't do

And you cant't wait to move out someday and call your own shots.

But, don't make her drop you off around the block

Remember that she's getting older too.

And don't lose the way you dance around in your PJ's getting

ready for school.

Oh, darling don't you ever grow up

Don't you ever grow up

Just stay this little.

Oh, darling don't you ever grow up

Don't you ever grow up

It can stay this simple.

And no ones ever burned you

Nothing's ever left you scarred.

And even though you want to

Just try to never grow up.

~Taylor Swift~

The Nanny

This is Tim's cat Fiona

She also thinks she is Noah's Nanny

Freaking Cold

This is how we deal with the cold in our house......

Snuggle!!

Enough

This past year I have had to say goodbye four times, each time harder than the last. No because I loved one more than the other, but because I have not really had a chance to recover from the last one. Just when the crying every time I think of the previous one starts to be less and less, I am forced to say goodbye again. Sophie was hard to say goodbye to, very hard. I knew it was coming and even knowing does not make it any easier. We only had 3 short years together and that was definatley not enough. I am so thankful I have been home full-time the past few months as it gave me that much more time with her. After she passed away someone sent me an email and it really got me thinking of just how special she really was and really made me feel a bit better......

"I'm so sorry to hear about Sophie. She is such a sweet girl. You gave her the best years of her life, she didnt die in a shelter because of you. I guess that leaves you to hurt. I cant even imagine the roller coaster of emotions that has been your year. The really cool thing is that Sophie got to be the momma to the best thing this year in your life! She just wanted to make sure you could handle that role before she left, I guess she could see you had it under control :) I can't wait for our babies to grow up in rescue and see what we do. Learn compassion, forgiveness, and that life is precious."


I have said this many times this year that I will never get another pet, as it is too hard to say goodbye, but as much as I know the hurt, I know the love too and if another Sophie came along I would not hesitate.

So thank you to all my rescue friends for their kind words, long talks helping me to feel better about my decision and most of all thank you to Wendy for the beautiful pictures of my girl, I will cherise these forever!

My Old Friend

My Old Friend

Today I said goodbye to my old friend

I pray someday we get to meet again

Under one more clear blue sky

Up there where the eagles fly.

And we'll go walking in the sunshine

With a big smile on our face

Race the river to the ocean

Go splashing in the waves

And I'll wrap my arms around you

We'll be together once again

And I'll tell you how much I missed you

My old friend

Yeah I know you're up there looking down

On the rainbow bridge we talked about

There's a place for me and you

Somewhere up there behind the moon.

~Johnny Reid~

Friends