It has been a crappy year to say the least, well minus the cute guy above. Lost 4 of my furry kids and then a few weeks ago my grandpa also passed away. So in the car on the way home today I heard a song and it made me think of my little guy and put into words what I think when I look at him, especially with the rollercoaster of emotions this year has been.
I was honestly scared to death about having a baby. I am a dog person, not a kid person, my nephews and niece are great, in small doses. I did not want to responsible for someone, I even remembering asking my friend what happens if I do not love him as much as my dogs! I was freaked out to say the least, I mean what kind of mother says that! Then I saw his face when he was seconds old, I cried, and now find myself so in love with the little guy and wondering how boring it was without him. Now my thoughts are how to protect him from all the horrible things in the world, how to keep him from being hurt by people, how to keep him from feeling sadness and the pain of losing someone or something you care about. I guess these are the things that help us grow, help us to become who we are and we need to experience them, but I still cannot help but feel exactly as the song says.
I was honestly scared to death about having a baby. I am a dog person, not a kid person, my nephews and niece are great, in small doses. I did not want to responsible for someone, I even remembering asking my friend what happens if I do not love him as much as my dogs! I was freaked out to say the least, I mean what kind of mother says that! Then I saw his face when he was seconds old, I cried, and now find myself so in love with the little guy and wondering how boring it was without him. Now my thoughts are how to protect him from all the horrible things in the world, how to keep him from being hurt by people, how to keep him from feeling sadness and the pain of losing someone or something you care about. I guess these are the things that help us grow, help us to become who we are and we need to experience them, but I still cannot help but feel exactly as the song says.
Never Grow Up
You're little hands wrapped around my finger
And it's so quiet in the world tonight.
You're little eyelids flutter cause your dreaming
So I tuck you in
Turn on your favorite night light.
To you, everything's funny
You got nothing to regret.
I'd give all I had, honey
If you could just stay like that.
~Taylor Swift~
Oh, darling don't you ever grow up
Don't you ever grow up
Just stay this little.
Oh, darling don't you ever grow up
Don't you ever grow up
It can stay this simple.
I won't let nobody hurt you, won't let no one break your heart.
And no one will desert you
Just try to never grow up, and never grow up.
Your in the car on the way to the movies
And, your mortified
Your mom's dropping you off
At, fourteen there's just so much you can't do
And you cant't wait to move out someday and call your own shots.
But, don't make her drop you off around the block
Remember that she's getting older too.
And don't lose the way you dance around in your PJ's getting
ready for school.
Oh, darling don't you ever grow up
Don't you ever grow up
Just stay this little.
Oh, darling don't you ever grow up
Don't you ever grow up
It can stay this simple.
And no ones ever burned you
Nothing's ever left you scarred.
And even though you want to
Just try to never grow up.
~Taylor Swift~
2 comments:
awww, of course you would be a great mom! all these years you've just been practicing with dogs. :)
he's certainly a cutie!!!
have a great christmas Bobbi, and I hope next year is a great one for you.
:)
Well, getting hit by a car ended up worth it in the end hey? This too shall pass. Here's hoping for a better year for you and yours (mine too). Couldn't have picked a better friend to go through it with... Love you all!!!
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